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so i thought i was going to be so good about updating this... and here it is 6 days later. it has been a rough weekend and week for me, but at least it hasn't been as slow as the previous week. for some reason it seemed to just drag on and on and on.

this past weekend i visited Portland to see my friend Nahko, who has been living in Hawaii for a year or so. it was so great to see him after 2 years! i also met his birth mother for the first time, and one of his half-brothers, with whom he has connected after 20-some years. it was exciting to see him finally comfortable in who he is and where he is headed. his music is amazing as always, and he had some great conversations about inspiration, beliefs, acceptance, and family.

maybe i'll have to go to hawaii someday and spend some time on his farm, in the peace and quiet of a simple life.

it caused me to do some self-reflection, and really think about what makes me happy. sometimes i don't even know.... i just feel so scattered, trying to find that "one thing" that really makes me click. i have felt it in fleeting moments--performing music probably the most powerful one. feeling that connection with the songwriter, the other musicians, and most of all, the audience. but is that what i want to do with the entirety of my life?? i also like my security too much--knowing where my rent is coming from, expecting that steady paycheck every two weeks. i don't think that i could ever just travel and live on the whim of tomorrow. but i also envy people who can pack up their stuff in a little bag and be a vagabond of sorts.

i have a wandering spirit.... but not the wandering sensibility to give up my comforts. :)

the first one

Well after years of contemplating a blog, here goes. I'm going to (for once) actually update it frequently, but we'll see.

I happened to go into my blog on myspace the other day and find some old, old entries and it was so great to have those stories that I had forgotten, and revisit some great memories.

I hope that this can be a space for me to do the same--preserve memories, capture moments, and express my thoughts.

Enjoy!