feeling frustrated

it can be a good thing to get frustrated... it can lead to inspiration and trying just a little harder.

i tend to be lazy sometimes, because i've never had to try at anything in my life. i breezed through school, i somehow have crazy good luck with jobs, friends, cars, and life in general. "luck" i dont know if i believe in it... but i have been blessed. :)

the other day, something completely unrelated set me off into a frustrated, overwhelming feeling of incompetance, of my music being not good enough nor ever being good enoug. but i had a good conversation with a friend who helped to center me again, and remind me that no matter what i might feel about myself, i need to realize that my art, if it is a true reflection of how i am feeling, is good. it might not be what other people say is "good enough", but it is a way for me to express myself and share my soul with others.

i'm not giving up, i'm still going forward. it feels so good to put things down on paper and to create something.

now to just get over the insecurities. does that ever happen?